Tuning back in time

Over the 23 years of visiting this ward in the Royal Hobart Hospital, it has stayed the same. The use has evolved and it invoked a flooding of internal memories.

Maternity ward it was...

Memories... A moment in matter that creates a magnificence of learnings.

When I was 17, I found myself in a predicament of being pregnant. No surprises, with the way I shared a lack of honour for myself.

Sabotaging myself out of low self worth and security in many ways, believing I would find myself in it all.

Sex

Drugs

Partying

& An older man.

Distractions, solutions & devotion led me down a garden path that I reflect on.

A dream as a young girl upon being asked, "what do you want to be when you grow up?"

• Free

• Caring

• Compassionate

• Kind

• Honest

• Leader of my own life

• A mother ✔️

• A sister... ✔️

• A daughter... ✔️

• A wife... ✔️

• Myself... 🌌✔️

Turns out, they weren't asking me about my character, they were asking me about what kind of work I want to "do".

"Just a Mum" something that attracted a lot of negativity. Because is my life of being a mother, I have co-created the guidance of re-mothering myself.

Myself

Others

Then

Him

Experience

Revolution

Equates to the love of the maternal energy. It doesn't stop with my blood though.

Always walking alongside others, my discovering myself. An opportunity that I skipped out on, to bring life source into the world.

Well, I suppose in the material world where money buys us "stuff", I wanted to be:

• A Nanny

• A beautician

• An actor ...

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• And all that I am is not defined by any titles, labels or pronouns...

I am.

I am a conscious creator.

I love to experience this life in its differing state of being.

Forever growing, pruning, shedding, and blossoming.

5 times my womb has carried the miraculous heart beats and souls. 4 that would make it to the earthly existence, who have all come to teach me the most magnificent learnings of all.

They continue to bring forth for me to see more of my tender, loving, compassionate, caring, honest, Integrated, and kindhearted being.

When responding and reacting to the happenings around us, we continue to change to dynamics to our lives. They are forever moving for us to expand our inner knowing and integrate into society.

Often a society that is based on fear.

Fear of:

• Judgement

• Criticism

• Failure

• Loss

• Death

• The future

• The present

• The potential

• Opportunities

  
  

When did we become so fixed in life?

With loss, comes gain.

With gain, comes loss

With death, comes life.

With life, comes death.

With love, comes hurt

With hurt, comes love.

It's all apart of my acceptance of all experiences being vital life source to support me in the being I am, right now.

We all can acknowledge our experiences. Some more memorable than others...

Birthing 4 life sources through my vaginal canal have all brought many important experiences that have contributed to the challenge of courage, strength and dedication. Ultimately, bringing resiliency.

This life has been a beautiful road to be adventuring on. It has brought life and death, love and hurt, pain and pleasure, sorrow and joy.

My life has brought many moments into mine and others memories.

How will we be remembered? Well, we get to choose how we present ourselves to be.

We are the capacity of which we decide.

With the external world always happening, these moments in the making of memories are always happening.

The life sources that have been grown in my womb, all gave me life and death.

Now it's moments like these where reciprocal energy of their life source forging mine, and mine forging into theirs.

Being an internal conscious energy within this eternal world delivers a great amount of appreciation and gratitude for the village that surrounds me, uplifting one another in the greatest adventure of life, that I joyfully experience.

With the experiences of recognition, relocating, renovating, revealing, remembering and reflecting over this lifetime, I am at a capacity in life where valuing the priorities within my capacity to explore, expand and evolve are a focal point of optimal health and well-being.

As life source enters the world, others exit.

Some are enduring the battle of their lifetime with chemical treatments, my earthly mother one of them.

Her dear life source being compromised by many a chemicals, her soul vulnerable and fearful and somehow, it's all okay.

Everything is as it is.

We all make choices and decisions from a narrative we choose to.

I choose to rest in peace knowing that we are all being the best we can be with what we know at the time.

We all make choices to let go, or hold on.

Memories are to be remember, not just for the event but the whole experience has an opportunity to guide us, educate us, learn us... It's all a curiosity as to the narrative of the personal reality we live in.

Developing characteristics of integrity, honesty, love, generosity, compassion, kindness, openness and clear communication come with a formation of personal boundaries and standards.

It's here where I have explored the realest, rawest and most rustic version of myself that I can truly see my experiences for what they are.

Moments that Mattered enough to create Memories.

No longer seeing them as suffering, victimised or abusive.

They all produced the fruits of an inner knowing.

I am defined by more than "what" I am in this crazy life. I am how I am in every moment. Operating from an integrated, genuine and authentic place of being.

In my personal and universal capacity.

Happily embracing it all.

Life is forever changing. My lungs are full of toxicity that has been suffocating the beautiful Tasmanian oxygen from the simplicity of nature's beauty.

A beauty of fresh light energy.

A desirable and delicious life source that I have been struggling to gain.

Rest, recovery and repair.

Within villages of communities, we have an opportunity to walk alongside one another to be. United. Honourable of one another and our experiences.

Honoured, respected and loved.

Celebrating our life source.

I love life's community ❤️ it's expensive. It's in an evolving state. It's exciting.

It's a beautiful life.

We visited Carter's annual cleft palate check up, Dr Kimble an amazing source of knowledge in his plastic surgery skills.

My discovery home, where I explored the depths of my soul with many beautiful experiences while I lived in it, got sold at a very low price for someone else to love. She blew a head gasket last year, I'm excited for the opportunity to see her be loved by someone else

Living in QLD, healthy, happy and content. Free from what felt like suffocation of external circumstances.

Celebrating Carter in his 12th birthday 💗

We had a beautiful family dinner with Kylie cooking Carter a very special dinner.

We were all quite unwell celebrating his life source. So grateful for loving family who step in when I am struggling to step up. ❤️❤️

Celebrating Joel is in life developments. 13 years old and experiencing this life with exploration and a lot of envy.

Learning empathy for this one is an experience of blood, sweat and tears.

Acknowledging the impacts of choices offers us consequential learnings.

Life's circumstances are as they are. How much of a circuit breaker am I?