It's all a ponder of life's moments.

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It was a clear night, the Full Moon in Pisces a clear life projection. The darkness, lit up by the energy of the moon in all its glory. I gazed in awe, guidance received with significant acknowledgement, it was allowed and deeply accepted with gratitude.

In awe of the somewhat chaotic experiences the external world is calling my humanness to step into, I bow down and surrender. I can appreciate that often my calling may be somewhat confronting and challenging, however it's all within divine energy that I am being called to expand..

My capacity to thrive, has often been limited by my capacity to simply survive, and noticing it is where I have the ability to exercise my free will to support myself with healthy experiences.

I know my tender heart better than anyone else, and so does Mother. She is always aware of the energy forging its way through us. She is us. She is our nature. Our love. She continues to guide us in a way that we cannot be ignorant to, anymore.

My Earthly Mother, in a health and wellbeing crisis and fight for her human life. On a celluar level, she was at the effect of a toxic load, called cancer. The way we've been led to see cancer, with fear or ignorance attached to it.

Did you know, we have the potential to support further toxic load growths, by being exposed to short and long term shocking stressors in our external environment? Often, allowing these environments to continue, we suffer with hurt and pain, feeling stuck, isolated, lonely and unheard.

My mother almost died on Saturday, her frail chemotherapised existence had experienced another crisis to handle. Her heart increased in speed, the stress on her cells too much for her blood to pump through anymore. She has and is being fed liquid chemicals through her whole body, to wash out any potential for cancer to return.

In her curiosity as to how it's come about that her familial network of community may not be aware of how to reach out for her, I reflect on the disorientation I experience by a society that generally waits until new life or death, before we celebrate with gratitude the life sources that are open for us to access.

I love her, in all of her states, phases and experiences she has experienced, I extend an unconditional and unwaivering love. We have certainly experienced a fractured relationship over the years, and within a transformed state of awareness, we can honour one another, free of angst, sadness, fear, hurt or guilt and be supportive with light and love. A guidance, inspiration and support led by heart felt responsiveness.

Intentional Moments creating Matter and Make Memories

Often, we hold on to our priorities of what others have imposed as our importances, and that comes with free choice to do so.

We are discouraged to live an aligned life, alignment with the truest calling of our spirits, and it tends to dishonour our sacred beings along the way. Robots, almost.

What would a life of encouragement, expansion and excitement be like?

There was a moment in space where we would come alongside one another, before the time of diagnostic illnesses and diseases and hold a loving space for one another in an attuned capacity.

I suppose this is what may support our system to relax, a deeper knowing that we are all one, in this together.

There is no seperation, only the seperation within ourselves. Our Cells isolate with toxins, because thats how we often treat ourselves when we are in crisis states, Isolation from truth, love and surrender.

Maslow's hierarchy of needs.

We can take a look at this with an honest inquiry process as to where in my vessel am I hurting? Where is the pain?

I remember it being everywhere, the pain. Fibromyalgia "they" call it. Heaviness and pain in the fibroids. Ever wondered what it would be like to carry around slabs of concrete in your muscles? Well this pain explains it. The brain fog, the fatigue, the illness and sick feelings inside. Unable to breathe, suffocating, a depth of darkness that chronic pain can bring through into our life. Well, thats what I was told back then anyway.

The exploration into resolving the stagnant energy within, surrounding myself with resources, guidance and recovery for myself through the nourishment of my internal input from the external world. I kept on choosing to sabotage myself. A relentless cycle of self harm.

The biggest contributing factor, violating my own boundaries and standards.

When we do carry it, it's often unsupported, unnoticed, and untamed.

Until we choose different. We have an opportunity to choose to be inward focussed, externally focussed or a beautiful balance, somewhere in the middle of that sliding scale. into how environments that are slowly or fastly easing or dis-easing to us, and we are invited into decision making of forming new patterns, practices and processes.

It's an inquiry, reflective practice that we have an option to process through.

Recognition of reality.

"We" culture, embodied, whole beings in commune with one another. When we think/feel or believe that all of our external circumstance are causing us stress, quite frankly, they are.

Being called to support the current circumstances, within community in a peaceful solidarity, is a divine purpose to serve humanity.

Our realities being projected onto one another, often a result of violation of consideration, kindly leave my life.

It's a decision I make, I won't ask you to change however, I will see how compatible we are to be in one another's lives and when the behaviours equate to a betrayal of genuine care and love, I have to choose the healthiest response to my instincts.

Transparent relations are found in how we articulate our personal experiences, supporting the behaviours that have an effect, and a capacity to deepen attunement within relationships. Often, hearing these feedback enquiries from others can be hurtful to the human ego.

I choose to release myself.

It is a much healthier lifestyle, surrounding myself with aligning community and celebrating the nature of living.

Celebrating the whole experience with all of the energies. Divine masculine, feminine, maternal, and parternal. They're all embraced.

Embracing maternal energy has been quite the exploration, with a conscious and intentional approach

As we (Joel and I) walk the path of Home education together, to continue to be in our calling, we are expanding within our community.

Knowing and being guided in the "how to healthily articulate and express ourselves" is one that calls for consistency, consideration, compassion, care, courage, creativity and cultivation

There is no lacking of information and education as to how we step into a depth of communication with ourselves and one another. Commune, Unite and Information certainly equates to healthy networking communities.

We intentionally walk this life together, some more conscious than others, and we co-create beautiful experiences together, free from Judgement, free from enforced hurt and pain, a simple expression to support ourselves in our connection with ourselves and with others.

This is a perfect wrap for the energy that is flowing through me currently.

Overthinking every detail rather than embodying every sensation and allowing it to flow through us.

Every touch, every noise, every smell, every optical illusion, every little bit of the encounter, absorbed because it is a nurtured, safe and protected space for us to be vulnerable and surrender.

An opportunity for expansion.

The ride of our lifetime. except I've slowed my pace down to a walk. I am peacefully experience life to it's fullest capacity. Loving, nurturing and co-creating within my ability to respond.

The obligation I have to my basic human survival is well health. It's a constant process to support myself in my health and wellbeing. My nervous system appears to be in a recovery. The consistent pace of which life occurs when you have other beings to consider, a pace too fast for one being to carry.

Isolation has been the causation of the breakdown of the village. A tribe that was once tight, showed me that it wasn't so tight anymore. perhaps, it was conditional.

A love, based on the approval of others of my behaviour. A judgement quite often. "How could she?"

"Who does she think she is?"

Standing in her power and supporting her intuition, instincts, and intrinsic needs to support the wellbeing of herself and others.

"HOW DARE SHE?"

How dare she live her best life, how dare she recognise that she was saturating herself within an environment with unreciprocated, ungrateful, unauthentic and unconscious love, to continue her process forward in reciprocal, authentic and conscious love.

Freeing herself of the conditioning and programming of internal and external expectations of how much one's capacity to support others all the time actually is, before it develops in to entitlement. Almost like an ownership.

How She dared to rise to the occasion, she forged her path regardless of the beliefs, thoughts and judgements of others and resolved her own in the box living, and expanded. .

Taking many moments through a deeply cleansing and liberating experience of how her ego felt connected to those memories.

Clearing them out with forgiveness, love, gratitude and regard for her experiences, accepting her part to play in situations with accountability, while releasing her into healthier, integrative and compassionate practices of support, honesty, guidance and integrity.

Honest within her expression, she forges a pathway of clear cut conversation to articulate her experience and to support others in theirs. Consciously co-creating an expansive community network and tribe.

She Dared How

How to support an effective way to rise to her obligations of divinity. Mother Nature continues to inspire me.

The seasonal changes in Woodbridge have been intense. From Snow, to Sunshine, to being blown around by gale forced winds, to the raindrops that sit upon our skin, bringing a refreshing rinse of energy over us.

Some have regarded these weather patterns to be awful, its dishonouring to mother nature to speak in such a way. She holds a resonance, a frequency that nurtures and nourishes.

In all of her glory, she continues to support, guide and provide. Mother holds her boundaries and standards, often shaking us up with nature's awesome creation, a beautiful inspiration.

Her natural patterns often misunderstood as "chaos" rather than beautiful.

Mother Nature influences and inspires me, allowing a guidance of receiving and projecting earthly maternal energy.

It certainly brings forth an embraced and embodied whole living experience, to answer the calling I have been placed on this earth to strengthen and action, remembering responsive conscious mothering, and repairing fractures when I am operating from an unconscious state that often results in reactive behaviours.

It's all in the process of this living experience.

Full of greatness, we can continue cultivating compassionate co-created communities, celebrating conscious consistent connections.

A matter of committing ourselves to moments of expansion, initiating an activation of a deeper self and universal awareness of what LOVE could possibly mean to you.

My love is unconditional forever, despite the behaviours of many attempting to fracture my experience of it.

It is, and will remain with a strengthening of personal boundaries and standards.

I appreciate you.

I accept you.

I allow you.

A bit of nostalgia, when we (me and my siblings/cousin) awkwardly and unknowingly "loved" one another.

Warm love,

Tegan

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